Hard is Still Just a Word

3 min readMay 31, 2019

So as I review my writing, I realize that just a bit over a year ago I had decided/declared I was going to get healthy! I even posted about it!

Hard is Just A Word

I need to lose weight. As in a lot of weight! I honestly can’t imagine how I allowed myself to gain so much! I’m far…

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My first thought/response when I came across it was, “Wow! I can’t believe I gave up so easily!” But I did! I don’t really remember exactly why — probably the fact that our daughter, son-in-law and granddaughter moved 12 hours away from us, after living within 2 hours of us for ever! It was quite emotional, and I’m sure the stress, grief, etc., factored in to my lack of sticking with it, not to mention tough situations at work and being deep into writing my book about grief — probably kind of gave up before I even got a really good start.

But that was a year ago! And I gained even more weight, and even ended up with a short stay in the hospital! I was basically at the step below train wreck — but I was definitely on the track! Point taken! Attention captured! Hard stop. This time is different, somehow. I already “feel” the success. I spent a lot time praying, thinking, reading, cobbling together a program that will work for me. I’m grateful to have had another chance to get it right. I mean as in I was scared to death I might never be the same again.

I’ve got a lot I still want to accomplish in this world and I intend to do everything in my power to be healthy and ready for the challenge.

End of Week 2. Actually, it’s day 12. But I’m on this! It’s a thing! And I’m manifesting like a crazy woman! I’m not even thinking about a 5-k or anything! I’ll settle for a 2-mile walk around the lake at the park, or make it the entire way around Maymont park the next time our granddaughter visits. Or making it all the way through whatever Disney adventure we happen to be on when we visit Florida.

The differences this time, I think: (a) hospital, (b) hospital! That’s it, folks! Knowing full well how things could have turned out . . . made me realize what I no longer wish to draw to my life or put into my body! Not gonna lie! It’s tough some days. It’s going to be tough. But every day I wake up with a smile on my face, because I know I’m going to give it my all to move 1% closer to health and wholeness — physically, mentally and spiritually — every single day.

The days I decide to eat something decidedly unhealthy — I get to decide if I want to go that route or not! The days I don’t want to get off the couch and move — I get to decide if I’ll stay there or get up! Claiming it — recognizing that each time it’s a decision — the only failure is not starting over when I make a poor decision. Yep. I’m on this!